The directions seemed really simple, pee on the absorbent end for 5 seconds and results will follow in about 2 minutes. I closed my eyes and followed the directions but for me the results came much sooner. It was positive and I saw all my hopes and all my dreams begin to diminish into a world of dirty diapers and sleepless nights. First I screamed, then I cursed and then I began to cry. I was pregnant! I had planned, I had been careful, and I wasn’t ready to become mom. Or was I? Why did this seem like such a curse? Why was I so scared? What would people say? I wasn’t married and although I was engaged, for some reason it didn’t feel like enough. Even though we had planned, this baby was coming and why would that be such a bad thing? Some people might say that having a baby before you are married is not right, but who are they to judge, when in this day in age so many women become mothers out of wedlock and do just fine.
The next day was full of telephone calls of the happy news. Yes this news was going to be happy. After a good night’s sleep and making sure that my fiancĂ© shared in my excitement I began to tell everyone. Who cares what people would say? The ones that love me will stand and support my decision the others wont. There were mixed reactions from everyone, but most were happy for me. I was happy for me or at least I will try to convince myself of that. Could it be possible that the bad reactions were taking away my ever growing excitement? And why was I letting the negativity affect me? And was it all because of me not being married or were their deeper meanings to people’s reactions. With each growing hour I began to answer my own questions. I was happy and that’s really all that mattered.
No, I was not married but I was on my way. I had been planning my wedding for 4 months now and the only thing that would have to change is the way my dress was going to look. Back in the sixteen, seventeen and eighteen hundreds many couples would announce their engagement and after a night of starting the honeymoon far too soon a shotgun wedding would be preformed so as not to disgrace the family’s name. These days some traditions still exist but for me I have no reason to hide my blessing. If being married were a requirement for having a baby many people would not be alive today, including my self.
Others might say that it is a good idea to be married before you conceive a child. They give examples from the bible or teen pregnancy ratings or possibly even statistics about single mothers. They all have valid opinions and even some facts. However, I feel that having a baby, oops or planned, is something that should not be a curse or even something that you regret.
Monday, January 28, 2008
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Steve, this essay took some serious thought! I must say it was quite entertaining. With this imaginative topic, it's easy to understand your interest in Quantum Physics. I hope you get to Sydney, Australia someday you deserve it.
-- Gunnar
Sorry Katy, I clicked on the wrong add comment button. However, congratulations on the baby.
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